Saturday, November 2, 2013

A rendezvous with Sitaji!


Simi:  So Sitaji...how do you feel today about all that you went through in the past many years.

Sita: Well if you see I have all the reasons to be angry. But I choose to feel different. Ramji abandoned me for his reservations about my celibacy while I was confined to Ravan's territory.  In my defence I can only say, that I single handedly fought Raavan and his troops with my determination along with my unmoved willingness to wait for my first love to come and rescue me. My devotion for Ram did not allow Raavan's greed to play on me. I not only kept him away from my body, but away from my thoughts as well. I had to fight Raavan alone while Ram had the support of of Laxman and Hanumanji. He wasn't alone like me.

Simi: That is brave Sitaji...how did you feel when you were shown the way out when you needed Ramji the most...I mean while you pregnant.

Sita: You see Simi....I had just returned from the claws of Raavan...and was pregnant, which was a matter of great joy and celebration. And then someone from city questioned my character and devotion, and Ramji did not defend the allegations thrown on his wives reputation. He fell in for the usual male honorary feat where a woman is brought to testify her sanctity and purity.
I could not believe that a mighty person such as Ram who fought the battle with Raavan and almost had a whole city set ablaze for his wife, could shun his beloved away after reuniting.
There were plenty of thoughts running in my mind...
How can he not trust me?
Even if I was away I was a frail woman overpowered by Raavan and his disciples. Even if he would have forced himself on me...the interaction would be just out of mere lust, greed and could almost be termed to a rape. Would Raavan's compelling act of coitus...make me love my Ram any lesser. And by any chance if that would happen, wouldn't Ramji confide in me that I would not lie and tell him the truth?...There was an overwhelming ocean of question on high tide running in my cerebrum that instant.
And if I really can speak my mind...which I am ....I say Ramji was away from me for so many days...can anybody question his truthfulness towards me?...can he prove to me anyhow that he did not go stray while I was being kidnapped.

Simi: oh...I can certainly imagine.

Sitaji: And even If I would have been a victim of Raavan's unjustful desires, was it righteous to punish me....and not him?...I see mirror reality in today's generation, where a woman gets raped...and she is the one who gets ostracized from the society. She is the one who is looked on as a white dove amongst the other normal doves. 'Nirbhaya' then and now always have opted to die...and then rest in peace!!!! I guess with time not many things have changed.
In the olden days men were granted the highest order of importance. As they were the bread winners, protectors, decesion makers and mukhiya of the family. Hence women observed the ritual of karva chauth...to fast and in return be blessed with their husbands longer and healthy life....so that these women themselves could die before their husbands and not have to face the bad luck of being a widow. They were not only emotionally but financially dependent on their husbands.

Simi:  Then sitaji....do you think...the fasting and rituals are all a facade?

Sitaji: I am not questioning anyone's belief. But in today's world where women are as significant as men, fasting for karva chauth has just become a reason to dress fancily, apply the most fancy mehendi, put on the most expensive gold jewelry ....and look as stunning as possible at the pooja time. There is no logic as in to explain....your starvation will benefit your husband and he will live longer than you. The point is  that....if you fast, you cut down your calorie intake...and carbs...and because you have not had enough nutrition you talk less, all this will amount to you living longer....and not otherwise...Simi...this was on a funny note....but give it a wise thought.

Simi: yes Sita....I see your interpretation a man's importance answering to many other questions one might have.
Further ahead...how was your life after leaving Ramji....?

Sitaji: It was not easy for me Simi. But I was holding lives in my belly...who did not deserve the mistrust  and betrayal. I definitely could not do this by myself. I rationally thought...who was more accomadating to my desires and feelings, who took care of me while I was away from my near and dear ones....who...was the one who dealt with his demonic conscience and still respected my desire of chastity.  It was Raavan. Yes the otherwise villian. I went back to him, told him my tale of misery after I left his captivity. He was sorry to know that after such a barbaric battle Ramji could not trust his love. He was more than sorry to see my plight.

Simi: oh really?

Sitaji: Yes very much Simi....to all extent he blamed himself for all that I had to go through and wanted to make amends. He offered to give me shelter in his city, and extended me an opportunity to administer one of his upcoming school. He recruited me to look after the administration in his school. As his economy was not as good as it was before the battle...he compensated me with free lodging and child care after I have delivered my child. And an assurance of always maintaining his distance and respecting me now as mother of someone else s child. I was already sinking, with nowhere to go...I took his offer consoling myself by remarking what more could go wrong after so much chaos!....all the hell had already broken....I should see light on the other side of the tunnel.

Simi: Amazing Sitaji...would you also like to throw some light on your concept of diwali...?

Sitaji: After the saga of Ramji and his brave acts of battle and  dishonoring me... the world celebrates Diwali...I take it as a mockery right at my face. Well, for me Diwali is when Raavan the much prophesied villain turned out to be a hero...that is when I thought it not always about victory of good over evil...for me it was rather a chance given to the evil to become good. And to my luck I was fortunate to have Raavan as friend indeed...to be a friend in need. I would like to wish all the viewers a very happy Diwali....and may the light of virtuousness and knowledge always bestow plentifully upon you. Happy Diwali!

Simi: Well viewers...that was Sitaji... speaking her mind from the real life endeavors...who was once a victim of bad fortune but she sculpted her way to a better future. Here is Simi signing off and wishing all of a very happy Diwali and a prosperous new year. I would like to leave you with a breathtaking scene from a much appraised Bollywood flick...Lajja.

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